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Latest Entries

The Pillowghost Stories So Far

Saturday, 7 November 2009 2:02 P GMT+01

Is the Internet something one should resist or embrace?

Saturday, 7 November 2009 1:52 P GMT+01

'Cern Zoo' retrocaused itself?

Thursday, 5 November 2009 7:39 P GMT+01

ANONthology - authors revealed

Tuesday, 3 November 2009 9:07 P GMT+01

Cern Zoo Nicked

Tuesday, 3 November 2009 11:49 A GMT+01

A review of 'Cern Zoo' by Nick Jackson

Monday, 2 November 2009 7:00 P GMT+01

Pillowgeist

Monday, 2 November 2009 2:27 P GMT+01

"Occidental and surely accidental"

Saturday, 31 October 2009 1:28 P GMT+01

Pillowghost

Thursday, 29 October 2009 8:19 P GMT+01

Karim Ghahwagi's Real-Time Review of NEMONYMOUS TWO

Thursday, 29 October 2009 11:53 A GMT+01

The Last Balcony

Tuesday, 27 October 2009 8:58 P GMT+01

All Gods Angels, Beware! - Quentin S Crisp (Part 2)

Sunday, 25 October 2009 11:56 A GMT+01

All God's Angels, Beware! - Quentin S Crisp

Friday, 23 October 2009 4:50 P GMT+01

DFL's Last Bow

Friday, 23 October 2009 11:24 A GMT+01

Black Static - issue 13

Wednesday, 21 October 2009 8:36 P GMT+01

The Ozymandias Site

Tuesday, 20 October 2009 10:10 A GMT+01

CERN Zoo - A DFL Real-Time Review (Part 3)

Monday, 19 October 2009 3:04 P GMT+01

Shoals

Monday, 19 October 2009 10:23 A GMT+01

CERN Zoo - a DFL real-time review

Saturday, 17 October 2009 6:26 P GMT+01

Early template for blogging

Friday, 16 October 2009 6:47 P GMT+01

Women with their backs to us

Wednesday, 14 October 2009 10:33 A GMT+01

Pirate (two)

Monday, 12 October 2009 12:51 P GMT+01

Nostalgia

Saturday, 10 October 2009 10:06 P GMT+01

Text Not Textpectation - Part 2

Friday, 9 October 2009 8:33 P GMT+01

Text not Textpectation

Thursday, 8 October 2009 5:09 P GMT+01

alogos on 'The Hawler' reading

Tuesday, 6 October 2009 11:10 P GMT+01

The Apocryfan (read aloud)

Tuesday, 6 October 2009 7:09 P GMT+01

Yesterfang (read aloud)

Monday, 5 October 2009 7:08 P GMT+01

Different Skins - by Gary McMahon

Sunday, 4 October 2009 2:29 P GMT+01

Ellen Datlow's Honourable Mentions

Sunday, 4 October 2009 11:37 A GMT+01

Is the Internet something one should resist or embrace?

Saturday, 7 November 2009 1:52 P GMT+01

 

 

Is the Internet something one should resist or embrace?


I wrote this on my blog on 16 October 2009:

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Pre-internet, I had masses published 1987 - 1995.
Please see partial bibliography HERE as evidence.
So, was I the first inkling of an 'Internet' junkie - by, almost at will it seemed, during that early period, having things accepted daily for publication in print as a template process for future blogging etc...??
I have now divested myself of 99% of those print publications.
Indeed, I have already fast reduced my collection of mags and books to a manageable core library that should do me out. Very happy about that.
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I'd now add:
A part of me then used to wait for the postman in the same way as today it waits for the email inbox to open..
There's no helping people like that part of me.

Actually, most of me wants to escape that bit of me.

But just because communication has been 'oiled' by electronics (just as it was 'oiled' by the printing press in the Middle Ages), why should we destroy it by walking away from it, as I am often sorely tempted to do, as the only means to escape it?

Partial, moderate use is not an option. When things are so oiled it sort of oils you, too. Makes you a different person. And soon you will not be able to recognise that different person because that different person will be you.

Walking away cannot now reverse that process. That's the frightening thing ... just like the Large Hadron Collider.

'Cern Zoo' retrocaused itself?

Thursday, 5 November 2009 7:39 P GMT+01

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A new review of this book HERE today has stirred me to perform the "retrocausality" waltz even more strictly come dancing. Previously reported by myself from World News HERE.

This review (a generally good one) also says:

 "...revolving around the assigned "theme" of Cern Zoo (whatever it may actually mean)."

CERN ZOO is anagrammatic re CONE ZERO and ZENCORE - the reason I used it for 'Nemonymous Nine' in the first place.

But, now, it is also a subsequently discovered pre-existing term: i.e "A Visit to Cern Zoo" in 1995: http://www-d0.fnal.gov/~gwatts/ud0/past_speakers.html

Based on my research among these rarefied areas, 'Cern Zoo' in this context is a little known expression among professional scientists for 'brainstorming' improbabilities as probabilities.

Which brings me back (or forward) to the Large Hadron Collider committing a form of suicide from the future. A 'retrocausality' that created the Cern Zoo book itself, as I explored in real-time detail HERE.

I also note that one of the respected scientists who proposed the theory of the Collider sabotaging itself from the future was named:  Masao Ninomiya (with a name like that Nemonymous doesn't seen a too far-fetched connection). I learned about this in today's TIMES newspaper where Bill Bryson writes at length in a colour supplement about such matters, entitled: 'NOTES FROM A LARGE HADRON COLLIDER'.

Nemonymous Two (2002) - as 'real-time reviewed' by Karim Ghahwagi

Thursday, 5 November 2009 4:04 P GMT+01

Nemonymous Two (2002) - as 'real-time reviewed' by Karim Ghahwagi HERE and transcribed below. (Taking place during October / November 2009).

 

I am not checking up on the identity of the author at present.

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Climbing the tallest tree in the world:

A sense of adventure, foreboding, tradition- the image of the tree.

'When we were students or professors'... Confusion of time? Collage of past/present as captured in the markings on tree- image of time and memory, an inversion? Heaven at the roots-crown in the clouds?

Passage of time/ direction of time/direction of the world- Microscosm / macrocosm

Rites of passage/passage of time- again a lunacy of tradition?

'The tree was older than the art of writing'

'fossils of passion'

Dislocation of time and space- sun sets, and then midnight- the journey of companions- which experiences are mutual, which ones, singular and contained?- in a kind of 'void'- 'dangled his legs over the void.'

A dream- doubling of birds- the owls/ falling up towards the sky/ down to the ground.

More moments of inversion, confusion of time, direction.

Effective use of 'unreliable' narrator- inner hidden world / external world/ markings on the tree which branches out to the void as some form of experience- Cycle of tradition vs cycle of nature/ interrupted. Vertigo.

Tradition/collapse/ renewal/ cycle

A strong opening tale that manages to effectively incorporate elements of identity/tradition/alienation/

And a handsome volume in a cinematic format which is comfortable to read in the layout.

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Mighty Fine Days.

Missing information.

'He seemed too heavy for the air, and appeared to slump bodily where he stood...'

Corporeality, also of the passengers on the bus stop. Missing information. An effect that mounts and mounts in its absences. Corporeality again 'He slapped Harris on the shoulder' As if the details pertaining to the descriptions of other people around Harris should give us some momentary comfort against the approaching terrifying blankness.

We get the impression that Harris is moving around in a sort of fugue, as in the opening tale- a dislocation of identity/past that could be interchanged with a critique of those external material things that we identify with ourselves, with the world- A stripping away that collapses the self, into a tighter and tighter configuration, like a cochlea or a seashell.

A both unsettling and humorous tale.

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The assistant to dr. Jacob

'I no longer trust the memory' Here we have a line that carries through effectively from the first two stories.

'...his home, a secret kingdom sheltered from prying eyes' Then an underlying sexual tension in the seemingly innocent garden? '...blush, bloom, blood lilly, tongue, button hole, burst.'

Cross-pollination of the garden and the human body. Also in the beginning: the seasons turning in the bones, the summer and spring of youth.

'...intimacy of a photograph' vs the intimacy of memory, and those things that are shut out, for a time- until they return and haunt the protagonist.

Here nature is initially romantic, idealized and hides something dark, and unimaginable- but for the frozen images, fragments in time.

This was a very disturbing and beautifully written tale. And it has a cat called Whiskers.

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Buffet Freud

'I puzzled and fretted at the position this would put me in, regarding our doctor/ patient compact.'

Social gathering with analyst and patient. Schism of social class, age, gender.

Childhood and transformation. 'Unreliable narrator.' Play therapy.

'A fake paradise, is better than no paradise at all.'

This was both a fun and bitter piece, a farce on the subject/object relationship and of identity and gender; a continuation of the investigation from the previous tales on the nature of identity, memory- both real and constructed. An emerging gestalt? We also have images of 'unmasking' as it relates to childhood, carrying through from the previous tale.

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Ice Age

A devastated inner and outer world.

'He realized that he had no idea what he would do when he reached the city, no plan other than try and find warmth, to escape the creeping cold that followed him like a shadow.'

This is a bleak and devastating story. The reoccurring images of the creeping cold, and frost-covered streets, are made all the more bleak by the desperate and destructive longing for the warmth of human contact and companionship. 'Let the cold world rush back in.'

The 'shivering' building is particularly effective at the end of the tale. 'Horses crunched in slow circles, their heads hooded by the fog of their breath' is another powerful image of Coppard's condition. I liked this story very much.

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The vanishing life and films of Emmanuel Escobada

The Brazilian born filmmaker's influence by the Italian 'Giallo' films. And now he speaks 4 languages of course.

'...the misunderstandings that result from language barriers.' - That is not even an understatement when it comes to the Swedish dubbed actor!

The gruelling two week schedule'- poor old man! And to cast him as Satan! Not even Werner Herzog would do that, not even during the filming of Fitzcaraldo in the jungle! Or maybe he would.

'...none of the characters seem surprised by the presence of a telepathic squirrel' HA!

This is a laugh out loud funny story that has a lovecraftian subtext lurking. This story is also an excellent companion to all the previous tales in its 'investigation' of identity/biography, but then here in this tale, all the witnesses seem to have gone.

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Be renice's Journal

'(I had to lay down on the floor and press my ear to the carpet to hear above the noise of the furnace vents)'

Bere nice is fascinated with her new neighbour who might be a banker because of his 'smart clothes' and good hair. 'The finest specimen of a man.'

Pills. Disability check. Compulsive brushing of teeth. Unhappy about the rest of body.

This piece, presented as a series of journal entries/ autobiography, is also an interesting variation on the other tales and works effectively as an extension from the previous Escobaba biographic tale. In this case solipsism, fantasy and 'construction' of experience is turned first inwards, and then outwards towards an unsuspecting other.

The sequencing of the tales so far has been very effective and has created interesting dynamics in meaning and perspectives, a polyphony of voices working around the theme of identity and experience. I am skipping the 'late-labelling' from Volume one so as to not spoil any surprises in the future.

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Showcase

'High above the road reared on concrete limbs, traffic streaming along its spine...'

A woman wanders through a ghostly park filled with electric emporiums, carpet palaces, pet stores, pizza outlets, car parks and movie theaters: Bleak descriptions provided by a troubled spectator?

Then the spectator becomes a participant, and the situation spirals towards something even darker and disturbing.

'The spine road','mouths of buildings',
'...gleaming on the face of a washing machine.'

'The Lady of Shalott'

A Ballardian ghost story, a consciousness trapped in a loop, as in the films that cycle at the Showcase multiplex. The tragic fate of the protagonist is projected onto the bleak modern urban landscape to great effect. Photography is also used as a very disturbing device in this tale, as in the dr. jacob story.

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Eyes like water like ice

'A thousand people had crossed the country to listen to the talk from a small group of Indian mystics.'

The arrival of the other, of something outside the sphere of the ordinary and mundane. As in the previous tale, we are moving towards something spiritual, pertaining to another realm.

'...middle class audience listened attentively
... planned what they would say to their friends at the after-talk gathering over a bottle of wine.'

A mutually sanctioned encounter of different cultures: the author presents a rather ambiguous stance however, on one hand farcical on both sides of the encounter: 'the Indian mystics headed for another city, another hall', an audience enthralled,' they'd laughed when the men made a small joke- bright eyes like water like ice, laugh like a child, cuddly like an animal.'

However 'The man in beige' seems to bypass the more 'frivolous' aspects of the ceremony- Quite literally.

This was a disturbing tale mainly due to certain satirical aspects being turned upside down to great effect. A mysterious tale.

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Earthworks

'Seagulls and crows told the story of my early years. They are scattered like punctuation throughout the narrative; sets of black-and-white quotation marks perched in opposing pairs above the lines.'

Digging a hole in the earth- almost two meters deep, birds perched in the surrounding trees above the hole.

Shift in time. Back to the years in school? The digging of the hole referring to a sort of archaeological investigation of a personal history?- digging down through the layers.

'Being the hypotenuse in a love triangle is a messy business. At school, geometry was made to sound so clean.'

Repetition of the shape of the hole, fragments from school. 'Spirals of poverty', 'a pattern started', 'the escape tunnel.'

A childhood filled with illness: 'I still half suspected the birds. Although true, it was a circle that got me in the end.'

And then in adulthood, shapes have a different meaning indeed.

'I think about the layers I have come through. Each age deposits its own debris.'

This was a story rich with feeling and imagery, beautifully imagined and with a poetic complexity that worked to forward the story very effectively. Another variation on autobiography, time and experience from the previous tales. Also of childhood. Who wrote this I wonder? Curious to find out at the end of these reviews.

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Striped Pajamas

'The clothes you wear are perm-press, the only other item in your bag is the pair of striped pajamas that belonged to your father'

A woman checks into a hotel room. We are presented with a catalogue of belongings, both from the private and public sphere, each one with their memories. The tragic significance of the pajamas is hinted at towards the final lines of the tale. The longing for escape we also encountered in an earlier story 'Ice Age'.

A tale filled with much sorrow and powerlessness. 'The man who monitored your life.' There is a suggestion however that there will not be an escape, but a return to a desperate state of affairs perhaps: 'Things that colour the hallway leading to heaven for the old and ailing, theirs a palette of oatmeal greys, at best.' This is in an earlier instance of the tale where the woman describes her conversation with her mother, but it seems to project forwards towards the end of the tale.

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The Drowned 

'Worcester is a town surrounded by farms, which produces a certain insular mentality and fear of city life.'

Travel is its own country, and the protagonists want to get away from their claustrophobic community.

'Underneath Kevin's idealistic statements about how 'mankind' needed to wake up or the evils of capilaism and pollution, I always sensed a struggle against a deep sense of futility'

This notion of what lies hidden beneath the surface carries through to the image of water and swimming, to what moves in the blood, what is hidden in the depths of the sea.

'One slightly strange thing that developed between us was that Kevin liked watching me swim and dive. He had a fear of water-not showers, but any body of water deep enough to drown in.'

Kevin is terrified of water, and he doesn't like the 'chemical' smell of swimming pools. Gradually however, he learns to swim, never feeling at ease in the water.

The swimming pool is exchanged with the expanse of the sea.

'There was always more going on with Kevin than was visible on the surface.'

This line from earlier in the tale also reflects the mystery and darkness that Kevin feels when he is surrounded by chemicals and the dead fish in the sea, which he describes in a moment of panic: 'They'll pull us under, make us join them'

And towards the end of the story:

'Our conversations became brittle and light, almost whimsical: the fear of depth had taken us both over.'

'I don't think people can ever really save each other, but they can help each other to keep above the surface.'

This was a tale rich with imagery and nuanced characters. With a just a few lines, the author manages to make these characters jump off the page as real living human beings of flesh and blood. Despite its pessimisms, this tale is strangely uplifting. Travel here, could also be understood as an exploration of the self as it relates to the other previous stories. The notion of escape also carries through from the previous tales.

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Adult Books

'Walter gazed around the poorly-lit space, searching, catching glimpses from the corner of his eye, glimpses of something that moved just beyond his field of vision.'

Walter finds himself in a shop along a city's decaying harbour district. He appears to be in a strange state...'felt himself drifting back into that fog, back into a white space that had no boundaries...', 'immersed in confusion.'

We get the sense that Walter is 'looking for a girl,' but he is obscure both about the identity of this girl, and his reasons for his quest.

The shopkeeper then gives us one of several clues. In a final twist that will not be revealed here, we understand both Walter and Dan McMurtry's 'passion' and 'quest'. At atmospheric and disturbing tale with a comic finale.

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Nothing

'One day he noticed the dust motes floating through the air and remembered that dust was mainly made up of bits of human skin. Bits of them were floating through the house like lost souls.'

The protagonist has lost his wife and daughter in a fire: 'only charred and unidentifiable fragments.'

He is revisited by moments, memories, images of family life. His world begins to fall apart: giving up work, contact with other people, he hardly eats, becomes disoriented.

A childhood dream/ flashback. The bucket and God's act of creation.

This was an unsettling story about loss. As the protagonist's life comes to a standstill, we are given the impression that something else starts to stir, real or imagined. This had some very carefully selected key images that were used to great effect.

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The secret

A wizard and his apprentice:

A sort of Socratic dialogue between master and student: The Rainbow Man and Muura.

Discussion of an initially frivolous nature- hairstyles, turns to issues pertaining to the survival of the species, the arts, politics, religion. A short comic piece that comes at just the right time in the sequence of stories.

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A spot of tea

'With ritual grace, Frank would play 'mother' and serve up tea, much to the continuing delight of his java-swinging American Brethren.'

Private Frank Worthy, a canadian serving in the US army, has a weakness for tea, and a fiery mat of red curls.

'The year was 1918, and sadly enough, all the tea in China could not change the fact that the war against the Germans was looking grim'

Junior is wounded in a surprise German attack. Frank's tea appears to do a little more than just keep the Allied soldiers warm against the cold French night.

A German, just a boy, is wounded as he sneaks up on the Allies.

'For whatever reason, we've been given this gift, and it's something that's meant to be shared.'

A meditation on war, mercy, and a portrait of a handful of soldiers surrounded by a little bit of magic in the otherwise grim reality of the trenches.

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White Dream

'Like any strange little girl might do, Jennifer had always wanted to die in the snow.'

Jennifer does not want her death to be a 'public' occasion, like her grandmother's funeral.

On a Christmas Eve, the landscape covered in snow, Jennifer sneaks outside when her parents are asleep. She finds a tree in a park.

'She grabbed hold of the lowest branch and climbed up into the body of the tree....It was magical to be above the earth'

This is a tragic tale, and the image of the tree returns to us from the very beginning of the collection.

There is a final tale, or section called 'Four minutes and thirty-three seconds'- four blank pages. I found myself thinking of that girl in the tree as I turned the final blank pages to the end of the collection. I'll add some thoughts on real-time reviewing soon and look up the authors of the collection!

ANONthology - authors revealed

Tuesday, 3 November 2009 9:07 P GMT+01

 

http://www.fifthestate.co.uk/2009/11/anonthology-the-authors-are-revealed/

 Above is where it's beginning to happen:

 

This is indeed exciting. Although I didn’t enter the competition, I am eager to know the results.

My detailed review of ‘ANONTHOLOGY’ a month or two ago that ends with a link to my then guesses:-
http://weirdmonger.blog-city.com/anonthology.htm

I wouldn’t be surprised if I didn’t get any right!
des

 

Cern Zoo Nicked

Tuesday, 3 November 2009 11:49 A GMT+01

 

 

Yesterday, in Nick Jackson's review of 'Cern Zoo', he ended his detailed (and, imo, enthralling and typically Jackson well-crafted) appreciation with these words:

These stories are like a subliminal question running through the book.  “So, we think we know what Cern Zoo is about, do we?”

I have a sense of something (uncanny?) going on generally with this book that I can't yet nail.  I don't think it is solely as a result of the recent Hadron Collider 'retrocausality' in World News. But other things.

But maybe (understandably) I'm too close to the book!

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A review of 'Cern Zoo' by Nick Jackson

Monday, 2 November 2009 7:00 P GMT+01

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Nemonymous, 9, ‘CERN Zoo’

Reviewed by Nick Jackson.

The individual stories in this collection are as different as pebbles on a beach.  There is, in fact, a rather nice little story entitled “Pebbles” and, to continue the simile, the landscape of this book (book as beach) is a shifting topography:  the theme of Cern Zoo being interpreted and reinterpreted:  surreally, comically, horrifically.  This is a collection where genres collide, where the waves of one form overlay and modify those of another.  The stories gain something indefinable from one another in the process of mingling.  ‘Cern’ is interpreted variously: the acronym of the research institute, CERN; a pub name; a shorthand reference for the Cerne Giant; an alien planet; a proper name.

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The collection opens with a sort of Cold-War murder mystery, “Dead Speak” which speculates on the controversy of scientific experimentation and the idea of an elite science.  This story is followed by a meditation on the process of writing itself.  “Parker” explores the physicality of ink and paper:  ink, particles, collision?

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All my ideas of an easily grasped thematic link between the stories were smashed apart by “Artis Eterne”: an intriguing mystery in which a man is powerless to resist the fatal attraction of his home town.  “The Last Mermaid” is a grotesque evocation of the Hapsburg court, populated by a menagerie of weird and wonderful beasts presided over by a deformed and gluttonous monarch.

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By this stage of the collection it’s clear that a breadth of style and form has been drawn on to produce a kaleidoscopic concept of CERN Zoo.  “The Lion’s Den” is a suspenseful tale that exploits the darker side of the time/space enigma hinting at the horrors of untamed and untameable beasts and creating a disturbing atmosphere.   “Virtual Violence” is a comic riff on the idea of party-games-that-can-get-out-of-hand and the damage that a pack of cards can inflict.   The story suggests we’d all be better off playing safe with virtual violence.  “The Rude Man’s Menagerie” is a sad and beautifully told story which blends mythological elements with modern day concerns.  It has one of the most convincing fantasy endings in the collection. 

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“Window to the Soul” is a quieter piece which explores a single character’s thoughts when faced with the moral dilemma of his literal intellectual suicide and its effect on his family.   “Salmon Widow” is a jigsaw story with a genteel murder mystery at its core and some wonderfully bizarre but believable characters.  Fit the pieces together and you may (or may not) solve the mystery but will be vastly amused by a world of button hooks and fly fishing.  From the delights of salmon we leap into a darker world: a story in which the metaphor of a shattered society is cleverly built up from fragments of animated glass.  The author has an instinct for just how far to go in explaining his looking-glass world.  “Being of Sound Mind” explores the idea of parallel universes from the engaging viewpoint of an aging scientist who suddenly finds himself burdened with a mysterious child.  His nightmarish confrontation with social services leads to a poignantly inconclusive ending and is all the better for it.

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Many of the writers in this collection succeed through a subtle manipulation of ideas, rather than too literal revelations and none more so than the author of “Mellie’s Zoo” who achieves an under-stated magic in a story about a group of children who explore a mysterious abandoned zoo.

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“Turn the Crank” is one of the few stories that seems to fit squarely into the horror genre rather than the catch-all category of speculative fiction.  The characterisation is excellent and there is a gentle humour that lifts the story.  “The Devourer of Dreams” on the other hand, is more consciously manipulative, addressing the reader directly in an uncomfortable epilogue.  The story has a creepily old-fashioned feel to it; almost as if it may have been stuck in a sealed casket for many years until it found its way into this anthology.

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“Just Another Day Down On The Farm” is a bleakly comic foray into the world of animal experimentation, skilfully worked through the perceptions of a pair of blundering lab assistants whose monosyllabic dialogue underscores the mindlessness of their actions.

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“Strange Scenes from an Unfinished Film” is a brilliantly composed play on the blurring of reality and fiction in the world of cult horror films in which a man finds his ability to distinguish between screen and the real world slipping.

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In the final few stories, the tone veers towards a less focussed interpretation of the Cern Zoo conundrum.  In “Lion Friend” a lonely woman is shunned first by her work colleagues and then finds and loses a friend whose identity seems to dissolve and reform.  In “The Ozymandias Site” an alien intelligence explores the site of the moon landings.  The identity of this alien race is evoked in amazing detail and the final analysis of their findings has a moving quality.

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There is good characterisation and some humorous scenes in “Cerne’s Zoo”, a strange story about a man who is capable of communicating with animal spirits and his friendship with a young journalist.    The animal theme is repeated in a brief comic interlude about a sloth, dissatisfied with the slow pace of his life who determines to live life in the fast lane.

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From this point onwards, the mood of the collection is decidedly cataclysmic.  Cern Zoo becomes the name of a pub in “City of Fashion”.  Populated by an unconventional cast of characters, the story charts the pub’s fortunes until it is overtaken by an environmental disaster, presumably caused by global warming.  The final story in the book is one of the few which declines any overt references to either CERN or Zoo.  Yet, thematically it sums up the collection.  A sense of alienation and disillusionment invades the lives of the protagonists who are desperate for a secure mortgage-bound existence only to find their hopes undermined by forces beyond their control.

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.The stories are, of course, anonymous, though the back cover carries a list of names, some of whom are identifiable as previous Nemonymous authors:  Gary McMahon, Dominy Clements and Tim Nickels, to mention a few.  Most of the names are familiar in the small press but a few seem to be new writers or ones whose identities might have emerged from a black hole, almost from the interstices of the stories themselves: “Parker”, “Pebbles” and “Dear Doctor” are more like amusing ruminations, though the characters in them are vivid and engaging.  These stories are like a subliminal question running through the book.  “So, we think we know what Cern Zoo is about, do we?”

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Nick Jackson is author of:  

Elastic Press

Pillowgeist

Monday, 2 November 2009 2:27 P GMT+01
 

There is something about a pillow on a bed, one that has just been slept on, its pressed-flower-embroidered pillowcase still in the midst of ‘pillowfight’ with its own soft sinkable innards ... ripe for turning or plumping-up before going back to bed. Earlier, by chance, it had too easily slipped out from supporting the head thanks to the sleeper’s tossing and turning. Or lively dreaming.

 

There are many incidents of pillows being used for suffocation and, so, it is strange that there are not more ear-marked pillowgeists roaming the haunted bedrooms of our world. Or perhaps they are the many floaters upon the eyesight that the mind blanks out.

 

A particular white-and-blue striped double bolster-pillow was kept in a Crime Museum in Bucharest as the one used by the most notorious pillow-suffocator of modern times. It had been a dastardly act as he had used it upon the wife with whom he had shared the same pillow for a lifetime of erstwhile happy marriage.  Happy, even though it still bore the yellow tearstains of both parties, marks that had been induced by the sadder moments of the night that we all (in our own way) share-in-suffering, whatever our frame of mind during daylight hours. 

 

The bolster-pillow was old ... so old, many museum visitors took the tearstains for a pillow’s version of an old book’s foxing. 

 

I once toyed with buying a pillow that I saw in a Krakow antique shop as opposed to in the more customary bedding store.

 

“Do you want it for sleeping on?” the shopkeeper asked in good English.

 

I nodded, fingering the texture of the starched pillowcase. It gave off late-night dormitory horseplay.  But everyone has their own feel for pillows. Somebody else may have sensed something quite different, like, for example, a sexual act that the smell of mothballs did well to conceal.

 

“I’d advise not using it for sleeping,” the shopkeeper continued. “The owner told me it is haunted with a member of ancient Austro-Hungarian royalty who died while trying to transfer from this pillow to his bed-companion’s pillow by force rather than by suitable negotiation, suitable, that is, for a shared night...and now it creates similar dreams for anyone who sleeps on it, dreams that are too real ... too close for comfort.”

 

What a bizarre statement, I thought. Folklore was one thing, but such superstitious pillowtalk was quite beyond the pale, as far as I was concerned.

 

But what did I expect, as a serious collector of pillows? I, too, had glibly slipped into pillowtalk myself earlier, by use of the word ‘pillowgeist’, a term that was only known to experts in the field. Ordinary collectors did, it is true, refer to ‘pillowghost’, or more obliquely, ‘pillowguest’, (in each case one word, not two) but ended up laughing off such concepts as mere salestalk inducements.  Only a few collectors had the gumption then to connect pillowghosts &c. with ‘candle-dreaming’ (the legend that one’s last dream is eternal as betokened by the simple sight, within the dream, of a single lit candle).

 

I did not buy that pillow.  If I had, there may have been a proper story to tell.

(above written today and first published here)

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Just as a final aside, I think I had a lucky escape. That night, in my Budapest hotel, I did have a singular dream connected with the pillow I had nearly bought in that Krakow antique shop. Amid the craziness of dreams that many of you will recognise, that pillow somehow merged with the white-and-blue double bolster-pillow I told you about earlier – forming a discrete pillow that was not single or double, but somewhere between ... for two small people or one giant person? I saw it wriggling – thank goodness I hadn’t already laid my head on it – and noisily tearing first through its inner substance then through its outer starched texture were pincers or claws. In the dream, I jumped off the balcony of my hotel room.

The Last Balcony

Pillowghost

In The Post-War City

Intowards

"Occidental and surely accidental"

Saturday, 31 October 2009 1:28 P GMT+01

 

 

Discovered below from the web archives of my old DFL website, i.e. from Rhys Hughes in 2000.

 Reprinted here because I think it is hilarious and vintage arch-Rhys-Hughesian.

I hope he doesn't mind:

In an ocean of fiction, which tales make the splash that sinks the ship of fools? After a thousand and one nights, who washes the pyjamas? Such questions are meaningless, though the words inside them are not without lyrical force. Trying to answer them is pointless, and it certainly must have seemed an equally futile task to the enormously prolific D.F. Lewis when he was first asked to select just fifteen pieces for this chapbook. How can a writer in the habit of composing at least one story every day be expected to sift, rate and compare the individual units of a backlog so gigantic that a list of the titles alone would exceed the specified maximum wordcount? The Emperor of China can scarcely be expected to make an accurate rating of all the merits and failings of every inhabitant of his nation. How could Lewis, puckish panjandrum and little Essex tinker, not feel a similar inscrutable impotence as he gazed far out across the rolling lands of his collected works?
          As it turned out, Lewis did not bother, choosing the required number at random. Fortunately his powers of randomness were at their height at the time. Glib critics may state that he is an acquired taste, comparing him to celery, stout or even himself. The simple fact remains that Lewis has only three major faults: ideas, plot and character. But that is not the point. His stories seem reluctant to acknowledge a human creator at all. They know what they mean, even when he lies and pretends he does too. Occidental and surely accidental, they are like those inverted calottes stuffed to the brim with dragées which these days are found only on the darkest shelves of closed delicatessens in sundry imaginary versions of London. It is too difficult to learn the particular style of haggling necessary to actually own a Lewis tale. The best that can be achieved is to borrow its ambience for a page or three, or however long it takes to choke on its miasma, rarely more than that. The effect never quite wears thin.
          This slim chapbook, with its sinister and cluttered illustrations, contains some of the weirdest and most ineffable fiction in the history of dark fantasy writing. Reading it is an experience akin to discovering a forgotten room in the semi-detached house of a very old, semi-deranged uncle, full of rusty bicycles and tinned food with indecipherable labels and oddly faded daguerreotypes of small girls and giant rabbits. Often a dreamlike agenda blurs the edges of the nostalgic evil, and Lewis begins to sound like a miniature Thomas Ligotti who dwells, or is trapped, in a dolls' house. At other times he paints pure moods between the lines with the ultra-subtle shades of Bruno Schulz. Yet there is also a totally new voice here, superficially the mumbling of Lewis himself but more likely that of the varnished but chipped tongue of a malevolent wooden puppet, and uniquely a sense that the prose has ears as well as lips, that it is eavesdropping, spying on the reader. Combined with the arcane density of the wordplay, the climate of distrust soon becomes stifling. It must be a relief to hurl Lewis down the stairs.
          The opening story, 'Jack the Ratter', is both one of the most cruel and ultimately weakest of the brood, though the god of spikes, if there is one, will probably be satisfied with its central sprung conceit. At a pinch, it is worse than 'The Weirdmonger', which although one of Lewis's most successful and famous pieces, plays too much with the sun, on both sides, to display enough of what disturbs itself best, or worst. Another partial failure is 'Dabbling with Diabelli', which tinkles those ivories of the demon maestro theme too brusquely for this time of evening, thank you, and 'Slaughtergirl', a timeslip parable which even a recommendation from Ramsey Campbell fails to rescue from its destiny as nervous theistic hash. And yet even these milder offerings are more excessively troubling than anything normal sick authors can produce. The same is more true of 'Trepanning', which seems to be about absolutely nothing, and 'Entries', an ailourophobic fable which shoots itself in its own cat's paw just in time to avoid making sense. And so not to bed...
          Paradoxically less distressing are the depressing tales, two of which share the flavour of a guano, doom and mirror cocktail served in a grimy carafe. 'Dognahnyi' is a challenge to all designer nihilists everywhere, a service ceiling of bleakness, decorated with chicken beaks and crumbs of deformed spine. 'Look Don't Touch' is warmer and greasier but grossly suicidal. If any story in any collection can be said to be tired of its own reasons, whatever they might be, for inclusion, then this is it. The title gives ambiguous advice. Wiser not even to look. Better to focus on 'Blasphemy Fitzworth' and 'Pogrom Panjandrum', masterpieces of poisoned atmosphere and barbed shadows. Pure, simple and awful. 'Beyond the Park' is another classic, with its huge finger poking about in a cellar inside the text and into the reader's nose outside it. Whatever was picked from there is probably not as disturbing as the accuser of the broom-cupboard squatter in 'Muse of Murder', who lingers like sartorial gristle between sanctuary and a foul den of aunts.
          The three remaining tales are works of genius. 'Dreamaholic' squeezes most of Kafka and a lot of Ligotti into a tiny area, smaller than a hand or genital sausage. 'Bloodbone' does the same for Lovecraft and Dickens, even while it is busy playing with skin and gutters. But before the scar of Lewis's earlier lunges can heal, it is 'Jack-in-the-Box' which really mustards the cut. The agony is charming. Apart from Fitz-James O'Brien's 'The Wondersmith', this is the greatest horror story about a puppet ever conceived. There are some incidental coincidences which make the tale even stranger. The central character is clearly Tim Lebbon, and yet Lewis wrote 'Jack-in-the-Box' long before Lebbon had published his first story, years before Lewis had heard of him. This is delightfully horrid. If a comprehensive anthology of the best short horror fiction written in the 20th Century was ever produced, it would be a crime if this tale was omitted. It is a text worthy of Schulz, Leiris, Csáth, Bradbury, Cadbury and Hamleys. It is bonkers.
          For a long time I have been grappling with what it is exactly about Lewis's prose which affects me so oddly. I can only return again to that analogy of the forgotten room in an uncle's house, only this time it was for real and was a grandmother. Beyond the bicycles, tins and photograph albums, there were ornaments balanced on the mantelpiece of an obsolete fireplace. They were old and indescribable, and I was left with the violent realisation that the past can be as alien in an evolutionary sense as the future. I never asked what they were for. Now it is too late, and yet I have a sneaking suspicion that Lewis alone might be able to tell me what those items were called and what purpose they served, almost as if he grew up among such artefacts himself. "This is a squigmalion," I can almost hear him say. "And this is an antimadhatterssar." And further on: "Here is a Cthulhu Catcher." But now I am not so confident. I wonder if he was one of them all along, perched on the rim of the mantelpiece and batting his eyelashes like a clockwork imp.

Copyright © 2000 Rhys Hughes

The text above:

In an ocean of fiction, which tales make the splash that sinks the ship of fools? After a thousand and one nights, who washes the pyjamas? Such questions are meaningless, though the words inside them are not without lyrical force. Trying to answer them is pointless, and it certainly must have seemed an equally futile task to the enormously prolific D.F. Lewis when he was first asked to select just fifteen pieces for this chapbook. How can a writer in the habit of composing at least one story every day be expected to sift, rate and compare the individual units of a backlog so gigantic that a list of the titles alone would exceed the specified maximum wordcount? The Emperor of China can scarcely be expected to make an accurate rating of all the merits and failings of every inhabitant of his nation. How could Lewis, puckish panjandrum and little Essex tinker, not feel a similar inscrutable impotence as he gazed far out across the rolling lands of his collected works?
          As it turned out, Lewis did not bother, choosing the required number at random. Fortunately his powers of randomness were at their height at the time. Glib critics may state that he is an acquired taste, comparing him to celery, stout or even himself. The simple fact remains that Lewis has only three major faults: ideas, plot and character. But that is not the point. His stories seem reluctant to acknowledge a human creator at all. They know what they mean, even when he lies and pretends he does too. Occidental and surely accidental, they are like those inverted calottes stuffed to the brim with dragées which these days are found only on the darkest shelves of closed delicatessens in sundry imaginary versions of London. It is too difficult to learn the particular style of haggling necessary to actually own a Lewis tale. The best that can be achieved is to borrow its ambience for a page or three, or however long it takes to choke on its miasma, rarely more than that. The effect never quite wears thin.
          This slim chapbook, with its sinister and cluttered illustrations, contains some of the weirdest and most ineffable fiction in the history of dark fantasy writing. Reading it is an experience akin to discovering a forgotten room in the semi-detached house of a very old, semi-deranged uncle, full of rusty bicycles and tinned food with indecipherable labels and oddly faded daguerreotypes of small girls and giant rabbits. Often a dreamlike agenda blurs the edges of the nostalgic evil, and Lewis begins to sound like a miniature Thomas Ligotti who dwells, or is trapped, in a dolls' house. At other times he paints pure moods between the lines with the ultra-subtle shades of Bruno Schulz. Yet there is also a totally new voice here, superficially the mumbling of Lewis himself but more likely that of the varnished but chipped tongue of a malevolent wooden puppet, and uniquely a sense that the prose has ears as well as lips, that it is eavesdropping, spying on the reader. Combined with the arcane density of the wordplay, the climate of distrust soon becomes stifling. It must be a relief to hurl Lewis down the stairs.
          The opening story, 'Jack the Ratter', is both one of the most cruel and ultimately weakest of the brood, though the god of spikes, if there is one, will probably be satisfied with its central sprung conceit. At a pinch, it is worse than 'The Weirdmonger', which although one of Lewis's most successful and famous pieces, plays too much with the sun, on both sides, to display enough of what disturbs itself best, or worst. Another partial failure is 'Dabbling with Diabelli', which tinkles those ivories of the demon maestro theme too brusquely for this time of evening, thank you, and 'Slaughtergirl', a timeslip parable which even a recommendation from Ramsey Campbell fails to rescue from its destiny as nervous theistic hash. And yet even these milder offerings are more excessively troubling than anything normal sick authors can produce. The same is more true of 'Trepanning', which seems to be about absolutely nothing, and 'Entries', an ailourophobic fable which shoots itself in its own cat's paw just in time to avoid making sense. And so not to bed...
          Paradoxically less distressing are the depressing tales, two of which share the flavour of a guano, doom and mirror cocktail served in a grimy carafe. 'Dognahnyi' is a challenge to all designer nihilists everywhere, a service ceiling of bleakness, decorated with chicken beaks and crumbs of deformed spine. 'Look Don't Touch' is warmer and greasier but grossly suicidal. If any story in any collection can be said to be tired of its own reasons, whatever they might be, for inclusion, then this is it. The title gives ambiguous advice. Wiser not even to look. Better to focus on 'Blasphemy Fitzworth' and 'Pogrom Panjandrum', masterpieces of poisoned atmosphere and barbed shadows. Pure, simple and awful. 'Beyond the Park' is another classic, with its huge finger poking about in a cellar inside the text and into the reader's nose outside it. Whatever was picked from there is probably not as disturbing as the accuser of the broom-cupboard squatter in 'Muse of Murder', who lingers like sartorial gristle between sanctuary and a foul den of aunts.
          The three remaining tales are works of genius. 'Dreamaholic' squeezes most of Kafka and a lot of Ligotti into a tiny area, smaller than a hand or genital sausage. 'Bloodbone' does the same for Lovecraft and Dickens, even while it is busy playing with skin and gutters. But before the scar of Lewis's earlier lunges can heal, it is 'Jack-in-the-Box' which really mustards the cut. The agony is charming. Apart from Fitz-James O'Brien's 'The Wondersmith', this is the greatest horror story about a puppet ever conceived. There are some incidental coincidences which make the tale even stranger. The central character is clearly Tim Lebbon, and yet Lewis wrote 'Jack-in-the-Box' long before Lebbon had published his first story, years before Lewis had heard of him. This is delightfully horrid. If a comprehensive anthology of the best short horror fiction written in the 20th Century was ever produced, it would be a crime if this tale was omitted. It is a text worthy of Schulz, Leiris, Csáth, Bradbury, Cadbury and Hamleys. It is bonkers.
          For a long time I have been grappling with what it is exactly about Lewis's prose which affects me so oddly. I can only return again to that analogy of the forgotten room in an uncle's house, only this time it was for real and was a grandmother. Beyond the bicycles, tins and photograph albums, there were ornaments balanced on the mantelpiece of an obsolete fireplace. They were old and indescribable, and I was left with the violent realisation that the past can be as alien in an evolutionary sense as the future. I never asked what they were for. Now it is too late, and yet I have a sneaking suspicion that Lewis alone might be able to tell me what those items were called and what purpose they served, almost as if he grew up among such artefacts himself. "This is a squigmalion," I can almost hear him say. "And this is an antimadhatterssar." And further on: "Here is a Cthulhu Catcher." But now I am not so confident. I wonder if he was one of them all along, perched on the rim of the mantelpiece and batting his eyelashes like a clockwork imp.

Copyright © 2000 Rhys Hughes

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Above cover by t. winter-damon 1993

The truly amazing internal illustrations of this book by the same artist here:

http://www.ligotti.net/showthread.php?p=15851

Pillowghost

Thursday, 29 October 2009 8:19 P GMT+01
Pillowghost (used as a compound noun here in public for the very first time) is in fact something quite different and far more dangerous than Poltergeist because its name seems sweeter – appealing to parents who like telling spooky stories to their children and comforting to oldsters who increasingly sympathise with the spirit of haunting. 

Throughout centuries, many may have thought about or spoken of pillowghosts while visualising it as a single word, not two. But never in print. In fact, rarely, has it been referenced in print at all even as 'pillow ghost'.  Therefore, it is has been difficult to prove pillowghosts' existence as thoughts or entities, one way or another.  Except by those of us who refused to acknowledge them simply as a means of preserving them.

So, never before in print. Never on Google...until, presumably, today.

It has been as if there existed an open secret, a direct by-word-of-mouth conduit to a haunting-by-pillowghosts of which nobody wanted to spoil the spell.

In many ways, I hope this blog entry is not a spoiler in that sense. On the contrary, I expect - with the power of the internet - this will strengthen the spell.  A collective conscious can be so much more effective than an uncollective one. Meanwhie, it remains difficult to set the pecking-order of truth and fiction and their various apportionments of symbiosis.

Tonight, instead of mere candle dreaming, your dreams should be more directly connected with the truth of fiction than ever before. Your head buried even more deeply into your pillow the closer to hear the whispering of the ghost it surely always wanted to be.

Not a pillow ghost, not a ghost pillow, not even a ghostpillow, but a veritable pillowghost as the softest shape of connived-with poltergeist - not only a compound word but also one with its constituent interconnection of letters in the right order and snuggling together in a neat row upon their own white pillow of meaning.

Whispering that you will never be awake enough again to hear it whispering.

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"The candleflame in a candle dream never dies."

from 'THE PILLOW GHOST" by E. Nesbit.

 

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