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Iritis

Saturday, 6 February 2010 8:30 P GMT+01
  Iritis is a rare, mysterious and potentially serious eye condition. I’ve suffered from iritis intermittently since 1973 – in either eye, but mainly the left. Thanks goodness, so far, never in both eyes at once! I have had it i

Butterflies in the Wind

Friday, 5 February 2010 9:48 A GMT+01
Following yesterday's article on Gunfleet Sands Wind Farm:Findings have just been announced today that moths and butterflies surf the wind; http://news.discovery.com/animals/migrating-insects-butterflies.html They instinctively or deliberately di

Gunfleet Sands Wind Farm

Thursday, 4 February 2010 7:24 P GMT+01
 Where I live.This was the then mysterious beginning of the process (November 2008):  And here today is the end result:

Dawn's Game

Wednesday, 3 February 2010 6:11 P GMT+01
In the old days, each day was indeed so old it could not recall anything with its failing memory. The people who lived during those old days – like me – tried to help each day as it dawned by calling up for it our own memories that we bel

Deal or No Deal

Tuesday, 2 February 2010 6:01 P GMT+01
  The Ligottian Banker on 'Deal or No Deal' certainly had a field day today. He even had his own rat army in the sewers. Noel Edmunds said he had tempered what the Banker said. So who knows to what creative depths of Horror the

WOODLAND WITHOUT TREES

posted Monday, 17 March 2008

 

 

Gothic Light: Brave New World Publishing (1991)
Editor
: Abelardo Arenas   Cover: Todd E Tuttle
 

 

A new story by des (dfl):


WOODLAND WITHOUT TREES

(1)
A stretch of waste ground backed on to the garden of my detached house. It replaced, thankfully, the high-rises that tended to back on to the other houses in the vicinity. The general area was an ungainly mix of people like you (low-class) and people like me (high-class): facing each other across a divide of cultures that often resulted in many people like me not leaving their detached houses after dark for fear of meeting those of you from the high-rises who were not people like me.  

In my own case, being unable to see your high-rises through my kitchen window was a godsend, even though I knew in my heart of hearts that, if I simply looked around the corner, there they would be: towering into the city sky as the worst that civilisation could produce. Worse than slagheaps.

My kitchen window's view of waste ground, meanwhile, would no doubt soon be built upon, but, currently, I could gaze out there and dream of a magical land that had been cleansed of your type of humanity.  It was stony, tussocky, scrubby, if often, at best, dune-like: but it was, for me, indeed, magical. A clean slate. I called it my Woodland Without Trees. 


At certain times, from my kitchen window, I could see a gorgeously spot-lit church, one that was revealed by the ‘woodland’ in winter and hidden by it in summer.  The blinding perspective of its spiritual spires was awe-inspiring as was its aura of magical faith.  I watched people like me trooping towards its door, in their Sunday best.  Clear-sighted, clear-skinned families with nothing but godliness on their minds. Upstanding citizens.  All using ‘my’ waste ground at the back of my house as their route towards worship.

One day – after a visit from some of my friends who had only your high-rises to view from their kitchen windows – I gave thanks for small mercies. Indeed, I hoped I had not been a bit smug in front of my friends. Out of sight, out of mind, was a good motto for me.  My friends had spent the afternoon complaining to me over cups of tea about your homes towering precariously like many-storied shanties in the climate’s new warm winds.  Even with their thick house-curtains closed, my friends could still easily imagine seeing thumbnails of high-rise hovels.  Imagination is easy when the things you are imagining are really there.

“How is your woodland-without-trees?” asked one of my friends: a little lady who sniffed and had tufts of hair sticking out from her face.  Why she couldn’t shave them off, I didn't know. 

 
My friends had indeed become aware of my pet name for the waste ground outside my kitchen window.  They often taunted me with it, as if I were being childishly presumptuous.

Another friend looked at me stonily, waiting for my reply.

Yet another friend bit hard on an ice-lolly stick that I had provided from my freezer.  She seemed all curves and airy graces, despite her ill-disguised aging.

 
I chose my words carefully: “My woodland-without-trees? It’s a delight not to have things in my face.  Emptiness can be such a great comfort.”

I had never told them about the church.

It was at that point we heard your hoots and shouts in the distance of the outside world.  You were never too far away.  I couldn’t block out the sounds of how close you might have been. Indeed, once, I was out there doing some light weeding and one of you walked past with such an ugly face that I have not been able to go out there since. Another day, I saw one of you lurking in the garden itself!


My friends returned their attention to tea and memory-cakes.  I was ready for an old film on afternoon TV in my parlour.  We were all looking forward to it.  Black and white films were so much better than colour ones.  I got up to switch the set on so that it had a chance to warm up.  We all settled in our armchairs, forming a viewing semi-circle.  I turned the volume up to block out the sound of your children playing outside on their soap-carts.  None of them were of the sort who went to my church in the woodland.

You were all in the film.  There was no keeping you out.  You eventually squatted, pitifully goggle-eyed, on the other side of the screen, having trooped there from the distance, in a scene gradually growing clearer as the set finished its warming up ... as if my parlour were your place of worship.  All of you in your Wednesday worst.

I know I shall never see the wood or the trees. I now sit here alone, thankful only for even smaller mercies, my friends gone, you gone, too.


(2)
They came late in the day to start.  A freshly hired group of workers, all spitting on their hands in a pointless attempt to look efficient.  Their ragamuffin looks had not been perfected in any mirrors, it was obvious.  The waste ground was evidently ready for development.  Imagine their surprise, however, when, about halfway into their work, they learnt from the rather over-bearing foreman that the end result was to be a magnificent new church for the city.  They had assumed they were building yet another high-rise block of flats, but some indeed had lately wondered at the somewhat fussy decorations on the brickwork.  The secret could no longer be kept and, as soon as they knew the outcome for certain, they realised that the half-finished building was already beginning to assume an aura of spiritual magic.  Or at least part of them realised this fact.  The unconscious part.

The interfering looks from the old woman in the window of a nearby house did not disrupt the workers unduly.  It became just another mirror they couldn’t match their own faces with. In fact, one or two of the workers nipped into her garden to have a surreptitious piss.  It was unusual for them to be in close proximity to houses round these parts rather than to the high-rises.  Rather a novelty for them to see sprays of flowers growing beneath their own wilting, dripping tulips.

“This place used to be woodland in the old days,” said one worker to another worker less long in the tooth than himself.

“How do you know?”  The questioner kept a weather eye open for the foreman.  Or, worse, for God who was now involved in the hierarchy of command, this being a church they were building.

“You can feel it in the grain of the ground,” said the oldster, peering at his feet planted beside each other on a smooth dune-like section of the scrubland. Mysteriously, he took out a pocket mirror, breathed on it (to see if he was still as alive as he felt), and then crouched to see what was reflected in its face just a few inches from the very ground where they were about to start work on the shell of the nave. “Yes, there are trees here. Huge towering things.”

The other one scratched his head.  He turned to see the old woman in the house window had been joined by similar of her kind gawping out at the work going on.  They were probably used to the noise of manual labour, as there was ever the noisy clanking of engineering work on a nearby railway-line, to such extent there were never any trains moving along it.  However, in the world of the house-dwellers, nothing was insulated with sufficient habit to prevent it being a novelty.  Only the high-rise dwellers ignored change.  That was probably because they were vital elements of the change themselves.

The foreman arrived suddenly.  He had an announcement to make.  You could see it in his face.

“There’s been a change of plan.”  Those behind the money have switched horses mid-construction, he said in so many words.  “This is no longer to be a church we’re building.”

“What, then?” asked the oldster, replacing the mirror in his pocket.

The foreman scowled as if he realised, just as much as the oldster did, that it was going to look very strange, whatever the building eventually turned out to be.  Some high-rise sitting on an immoveable church-base, but hinted to be a potentially moveable ‘hardship’.  That was the word they all thought the foreman was trying to say.  Or the two words: “Hard ship.”  Except his voice leap-frogged the gap between, as a huge dirigible floated along the horizon between two high-rises.

They eventually built a massive high-rise mirror instead, following another change of plan. A gigantic reflector so as to reproduce, by careful angles of incidence, the real high-rise that towered behind the old woman’s house.  The house was inadvertently reflected, too.  With the secondary image of the same old woman mooning at the secondary window in her secondary house.

Where the two views intersected they erected a tiny stylised model of the church they had originally intended to build, with tiny doll-like people trooping to its door.

The workers were eventually laid off; their job done.  The oldster sometimes returned with his own tiny mirror, but the new angles of incidence created by the secondary - now often tertiary - views made him think he was the only person who knew what was going on whilst all the time he was more confused than anyone else because he was the only one who tried to make any sense of it.  He pissed surreptitiously upon the church, careful to spare the old woman’s blushes, but spraying everything, even the tiny worshippers, with the collateral damage from his own aging waterworks.

No utilities were piped these days, but only carried on airships.


(3)
The courting couple knew something about each other, no doubt, but everyone in the vicinity’s houses or high-rises only saw a pair of shadows slipping from a car into the wasteground. And such rudimentary shapes could only tell old-fashioned childhood silhouette-stories, not complex motives of love or desecration.

One would have thought that courting couples – in this day and age – would be able to find plenty of private spaces for their business.  But not Shack and Spyra – if those were indeed their names.  Only a story half-told can keep any secrets from the storyteller of the half that was told.  And there is needed one other storyteller to complete the picture with at least a slightly overlapping picture.

It was deathly quiet.  While the moonlight did not exactly ignite the werewolf in Shack, it did seem able to suppress the vampire in Spyra.  She retracted the passion of her instinct and merely lent herself to the deep kisses that Shack simply wanted to ply.

From the eye’s corner of a combined sense of alertness, they saw the model of the church glowing like a hallowe’en lantern, previously invisible before the onset of moonlight.  The dolls from the doll parish actually moved beyond the powers of mere childhood dolls towards the gaping doors of the church, breathing in light that they felt within themselves as light they actually breathed out.  Only the other storyteller could finish what was meant.  It must have been left half-told, as one storyteller’s quest for another storyteller remained unconsummated.  How dolls walked by their own volition was a mystery intrinsic to the religion towards which they walked in order to celebrate the very same religion that enabled them to walk.

Spyra suddenly lifted her face from Shack’s.  She had heard the whirring of an engine above in the sky plus the hiss of escaping air.  She bared her fangs and matched hiss with hiss.  Shack growled under his breath, as he felt a vent within himself explode from over-filling.

The moon disappeared and so did the first-half storyteller.


(4)
Trapped in his own thingie - into the clearing, the sun having only just got up, strode DF Lewis with tears in his eyes.  The purposefulness of his gait conflicted with the uncertainty of his emotions.  Tears of joy or sadness? Or neither?

The surrounding woodland was filling with birdsong; he did his best not to scare them into too hurried a flight.  But he wondered if bigger things of the air would soon arrive to put paid to the silence that emanated from the other side of the mass twitterings he was so careful not to disrupt with his own noise.  The big things always had even bigger shadows canopying the ground.  He held a doll in his hand. As if it were a device used in voodoo. He had been summoned here to explain the doll, to explain this clearing in the woodland, to explain, most of all, the old woman about to be brought to see him here in the clearing.  But the advantage of knowing about this imminent duty of explanation could now, in turn, explain his own tears.  Tears of frustration.

Over the tops of the trees he saw the distant triple top of a church’s towers, partly Christian, partly not.  The central tower was fatter, more oniony than the two thinner towers or spires that flanked it.  He named the flanking ones as Shack and Spyra.  There was a hidden joke here but one he didn’t quite get.  The middle one he had as yet to name.  The old woman would name it, when she arrived, he vowed.

He was insufficiently omniscient to know that the old woman would definitely never arrive here in the clearing.  Soon, his tears – as he looked towards the doll in his hand – were truly tears that came from real crying.  Or that was how he would describe them later.  He left the option, no doubt, that he could be crying with laughter.  As one does when tickled by something so funny one can’t control the humour of the joke involved, thus allowing it to be subsumed by an actorly pose or by self-conscious fabrications of experimental emotion.

Surprisingly, he was surprised when the old woman was marched into the clearing flanked by two of her friends.  One friend was toothless from over-age and sported sprouts of individually islanded mole-hair on her visible skin.  The other bald from lack of moonlight and stony-faced: decidedly masculine, despite the feminine clothes. 

DF Lewis yearned again for the omniscience that he might be able to command to obtain an understanding of what should have happened next. 
 
A wild-winged interference of dawnsingers lifted silently into the sky from the fast-fading trees ... chased by a huge ground-hugging air-shadow that was suffocating the flight's own mass of smaller shadows. 

He gave the doll to the old woman and ran ... and ran ... scared of not understanding anything... and soon came to a railway-line where workers were banging points with long hammers.


(5)
Our vast dirigible paddled hard through the air, its engine purposely muted for surreptitious reconnoitring.  We were after an escaped storyteller.  We knew he was in the woodland that he had created as camouflage.  We skimmed over one of the woodland’s many clearings and saw railway-workers tapping points with their tuning-hammers.  Could he be among them?  Did they even look as if they believed they existed and were not simply further concoctions of his scheme of camouflage?
 
We decided, after all, that they were genuine railway-workers, belonging to a union that expressly forbade the employment of any casual labour such as rogue storytellers or other recalcitrants.  One of the crew wielding hammers waved to us from the ground as if to confirm our already pretty firm supposition.  We were a common sight in those parts above the expanding woodland, if rarely seen close enough by the high-risers to be considered other than as a dark cloud threatening a storm.  One thing we had established for sure: there was no real-sized church in the vicinity answering any descriptions close to the illustration often given in some quarters as to its likeness. The railway-workers were doll-sized from our vantage-point in the sky, but we were equally convinced they were real-sized people when seen close up. We didn't need to land to prove it.
 
"Wait!" shouted Captain Nemo. "Follow that line to its end!"
 
He pointed at a track that eventually seemed to end in nothing, not even buffers. The rest of us were shaken to our roots, a difficult emotion with which to grapple if one is air-borne.  That was obviously a mock-up of a railtrack.  So if that were fabricated...
 
Someone else in our cabin was filming the scene below us ostensibly for later scrutiny as evidence.  But I suspected this cameraman was just another fictioneer - simply like the rogue storyteller - and was really filming for a cinema film.  The worst fabrication of all, I thought.  I could no longer believe in suspension of disbelief where 'screen fiction' was concerned.  A blight, true, on the fields of entertainment I could enjoy.  But what could I do about it when all I saw were the mechanics of film-making rather than the story itself?
 
So, imagine instead, if you can, what is easy to imagine: the things and people that are really there as opposed to being imaginary.
 
The old woman was held captive along with her friends in an airship hangar, suspected as she was of being Instigator and First Cause, held indefinitely to prevent any further mischief.  Or had she captured herself as a double-bluff?  Or, indeed, had she caused to be captured (along with herself) those Horror creatures Shack and Spyra whom she had originally set loose in the guise of her friends - as a straight truth rather than the more expected triple bluff? And we landed with the hiss of air-brakes alongside the hangar, ready to interrogate her to the very bottom bone of this plot.


(6)
I stare through my kitchen window at the erstwhile Woodland Without Trees.  Nothing but high-rises striating the vocabulary of the view.  I know I must live here in one of the very few actual detached houses left.  I’m taking rearguard action against the compulsory purchase orders.

Those creatures who willy-nilly pee in my garden, they’re becoming commoner in both senses of that word.  I catch them making sneaky ugly faces at me; they shout through the letterbox that they want to ask me a few glib questions but how can you take them seriously as representatives of the authorities after such loose letting, such fluidity and fluency?

Now, some other strangers arrive on this dark whirlygig stormcloud day, as if they have been transported down somehow from a vast silent helicopter ... just to interview the last stalwart of ‘people like me’. 

I have just thought of you. Of you who are my two old friends, flanking me here in the parlour like real bodyguards but now, I fear, more like dolled-out models of yourselves or simply ghosts of yourselves ... or the mocking high-rise spires of genius loci in stale eked-out perspective. 

I indicate to you that it’ll be over my dead body that I’ll let those piss-artists outside inside.  "You’ll surely stand by me," I say to myself, knowing you two ghosts will hear me.  But what can you as ghosts do?  You’ve  lost all your traction as monsters of horror by becoming ghosts, but, if the unimaginable truth were told, you are now not even ghosts, with each of you vanishing into the form of a drogulus, a ghost of a ghost of a ghost of a ghost... ad infinitum, ad absurdum, tapping a silent invisible tuning-fork to test the channels of your non-being.

I des-pair.  I am effectively alone facing a world that turns its mirror against me. 
 


   

 

Gothic Light: Brave New World Publishing (1991)
Editor
: Abelardo Arenas   Cover: Todd E Tuttle
 




1. Weirdmonger left...
Tuesday, 18 March 2008 10:12 am

Although not made explicit above, a dream last night told me that this story is about the Credit Crunch crisis ... when droguli come home to roost. Think about it. It's all been done with mirrors.


2. Weirdmonger left...
Wednesday, 19 March 2008 4:11 pm

Coincidentally, today, I read Joel Lane's 'The Pain Barrier' (from the 'Lost District' collection). It seems obliquely relevant to 'Woodland Without Trees' above.